8/30/08

Annoyance

I'm annoyed. Tired of getting harrassed by an ex. He needs to let go, and find himself-- in himself.
And I need to find myself.
I don't know what to do.

8/7/08

Tears Today

I made a HUGE mistake today. While at a party, the woman who has my old puppy Rusty arrived. I've been upset about it (mom and dad giving him away while I was at school) since I found out he was gone. I shouldn't have talked to her. Now I can't get Rusty off my mind.
I've been scouring the Internet, searching for Yorkie puppies, crying on and off. I miss Rusty so much. Janette, the woman that has him, offered to bring him over sometime. I don't think I could handle it. I'd break down crying. He wouldn't remember me, and that would hurt so much (And now I'm crying), because I still love him.
He's going to be two in February. I can't believe it.
I haven't talked to anyone since we got home. No one outside the house, that is. I feel bad, 'cause I got mad at Gage last night, and I think he thinks I'm still mad at him. But this has nothing to do with him. I don't want to talk to anyone. I was supposed to call back one of my friends, but I haven't yet.
While looking for another Yorkie, I found an ad for free T-cup Yorkie puppies. I emailed the woman , and am praying for a call. I told my parents that I am going to get this puppy, if the woman still has them.
They should have never gotten rid of Rusty. They gave him away, and then only a couple of months later I came home. Oh, and don't forget that my cat ran away the SAME MONTH that they gave Rusty to Janette, and no one told me until the day I came home.
I know this sounds spoiled, but right now, I keep thinking that my parents owe me for losing my baby, and giving away my dog. (and cue the tears)
I just miss them. Sonnet and Rusty. My boys. Yeah, I have Sammie, and Losgann never left, but... It's hard to lose a pet. Especially when you never got to say goodbye, didn't even know they were leaving.
Well, that's all for now. Thanks for listening.