Happy Mother's Day!!

Here's to all the mothers out there. Though I think all my viewers are teenagers... I hope if you are a mother, that your Mother's Day is more wonderful than your last one. Or my mom's. We have no $$, so we can't treat her out very well. I feel bad. I love her, but I possess NO money. Well, I guess that helping her with food storage could be my gift... Well, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

Messing With Minds

Lucas:
Makenna: I love you
Makenna: Wait...
Makenna: Wrong persom
Lucas: wtf?
Makenna: person
Lucas: great. now im scared for life
Makenna: THAT WASN'T MEANT FOR YOU!!
Lucas: T_T
Makenna: Oh, whatever.

I like messing with people's minds... And don't act so shocked.

I just noticed something.... my "About Me" section rhymes... I didn't even do that on purpose! Lol!

Dreams

There are a lot of different types of dreams. Dreams of success, broken dreams, good dreams, phrophetic dreams, bad dreams, nightmares, and the list goes on. Even "wish" is synonymous with "dream." (A dream is a wish your heart makes).

I think in one dream, a recurring one, I've had all these types of dreams. And it's quite stupid. It's a mere fragment of a dream, really. I find my glasses.

No, I'm not kidding you. I'm quite serious. I keep having a dream where I find my glasses. Because I have lost my glasses (rest assured I am not mistaking my glasses with my proverbial "marbles") in real life. So now they are haunting me in my dreams. They are always on a white shelf. That's all I remember. A white shelf.

And yes, maybe I have lost my marbles. If I even had any. But that white shelf is driving me nuts, 'cause I don't have that many in my house, and the last day I remember having them, I was over at a friend's house. And last I remembered, he didn't have white shelves, either. So I'm totally lost.

And I've become soo obsessed with finding my glasses, I've told my therapist about the dream. He says that I'm not only looking for my glasses, which help me to see further, but I'm looking for the bigger picture, a new perspective, and something about seeing a way out of my immediate predicament.

Whatever it is, it's driving me insane. That, and my virus. YAY FOR TROJAN!!! NOT ONLY TO PROTECT AGAINST PREGNANCY AND STDS ANYMORE!! *sidenote* I wonder if it was Trojan Man who infected me in the first place...

Only A Little Obsessive

Have you ever played a video game that you just can't beat the level, so you get totally obsessive about beating it? It like becomes your personal mission to beat this game, like it personally did something to you.
Like, for instance, Peggle Deluxe 1.0. I'm doing a challenge, a 300,000 point challenge, and I CAN NOT beat it! (and watch me kick it's little animated ass when I'm done posting this!) That would be ironic. Lets see if it works, shall we?

And it did. I have beat all the 300K challenges! On to the next level!! The 350K!

Well, now that I beat that level, I'm going to become obsessive over the next level I can't beat. Or maybe this keyboard. It's not picking up some of my keystrokes, and whole words are being skipped.

My whole computer is fucked up. I have a Trojan virus, and many of it's little components. AND I CAN'T GET RID OF IT!! My anti-virus can't do anything, because it can't access some of the files. And my uncle isn't here, who could fix it, and my friends who could walk me thru it are NEVER on.

So I'm stuck with pop-ups, and missed keys, and all sorts of fun stuff. Like, my computer randomly shutting down. WOO HOO.

Broken Lives.

I feel so guilty. I broke a man's heart today. I just couldn't be in a relationship with him anymore. I just got so tired of the disrespect. Our relationship was physical. That's all I really got from him: the occasional kiss, the hugs, and that's about it. I got SO tired of pulling both of our weights in the relationship.
Like, today, he yelled at me. It hurt so bad. But I can't, and won't, be in a relationship with someone whose anger isn't in check. I don't want that in my life in the future, and I don't want it in my future kids' lives.
I know he's hurt. But I wasn't going to just sit around. He once told me that if I was going to break up with him, to do it quick, and don't wait. I made a mistake and did. I've given him quite a few chances. I am a person who believes in second and third chances. I gave him quite a few.


ALL of this has happened in less than 2 days. Life is so fast. It's fast, and it can hurt when you crash. But, thankfully, I can take it one week, one day, one hour, one minute, one second, one breath at a time.

Freaky Horoscopes.

I'm a Sag.. And I was reading my horoscope on Yahoo! and here's what it says:

Don't look now but your ruler Jupiter is about to start a retrograde cycle. This is not bad news, per se, but it does mark the start of a cycle when you might feel a little less inclined than usual to do your Sagittarian thing of going where Angels fear to tread, and so on. No matter. This is a good day to stop and reflect on what you actually want for yourself and your life, no in a Five Year Plan kind of way but in a Over The Next Coupla Weeks fashion. No detail is too minor to attend to.

Mine on Tarot.com:

A return to your regular routine is practical, yet you may not be willing to give up on your dream of going on a journey of some kind. Nevertheless, it seems as if you are running out of time and cannot get away with wasting your energy on non-productive activities. Luckily, even the most boring chore can suddenly transform into the very adventure you seek.

Horoscopes.com:

Don’t feel too bad if you decide you really need a bit of time- out today, because as with a couple of other signs this isn’t likely to be one of your more sparkling days, and similarly, spending a little quality time enjoying more gentle pursuits will provide the relaxing end to the weekend you crave!

Astrology.com:

You may not be feeling as energetic as usual, but family members or coworkers should keep you going throughout the day. Let someone else lead the way for the time being -- it should help you catch up!

http://www.latimes.com/features/horoscopes/

It's hard for you to live in the moment unless you have an idea of what's next. Knowing the overall plan about where you're headed helps you feel secure and relaxed enough to enjoy what's going on now

I am soooo sorry!

Okay, so for all of you who were embarrassed for me last night, I apologize. When I haven't slept, I get loopy.

And for all of you who got worried for my sanity, thank you. I am perfectly fine now. Maybe.

I did eventually get to sleep last night. At like, 3:00-4:00 AM, but I slept.

I have a favor to ask of you, Readers. If you dream about finding a pair of green and black glasses, could you please tell me where you found them? And "on my face" doesn't count.

So, last night, I found out I have the Trojan viruses. A bunch of them. And my computer can't get rid of them. So now I get random pop-ups, and a LOT of spam. Grr. And my Norton can't help. *cries*

So, to help with my problem, my awesome friend, Jack, helped me. But, in the process, he got rid of my Smiley Central. *sobs* So you're going to get just random icons from now on, unless you can tell me where I can get awesome smileys without adware and spyware...

There was something else I was going to tell you about... Damn. I forgot. I have Bush-itis... *devilish smile*

Oh. And Let me tell you, I am SO tired of drama!!! Haley, one of Tank's "friends" tried to break him and I up last night. I put the "" up because he doesn't consider him a friend, really. he doesn't wantme to have anything to do with her. And now, I don't really mind. So, FUCK OFF, HALEY.

*Yawns* GIMME THE FUCKING MEDICATION!!!

I have no sleeping pills. I have run out. I want to sleep. My insomnia is soo bad, I am dependenton medication to put me to sleep. Hooray for God's awesome sense of humor!!!


Well, since I am awake all night, I'm probably going to do something stupid. Just giving you a heads-up. And I take no responsibility for lost IQ points.

I have some really funny little Icons, as I told you. I will probably post them here. Tonight. All 700 of them. No, I'm kidding. I wouldn't put them all here. Not now. Just enough to make your heads spin.

You will also probably slap yourself in the head a couple of times after reading this. Because I am such a doofus. And because I have some really silly and funny and... and... yeah. I will also probably go into baby-voice mode a few times, repeating the same
words a few times in a row. Yay!

Below is an actual account of a conversation I just had. Ignore the beginning, it won't make sense.

Lucas: its not Professional

Makenna: Whatever.

Makenna: But is it?

Makenna: oh.

Makenna: nm.

Lucas: ? alright then

Makenna: yeah...

Makenna: *blushes and turns to inspect the pretty psychedelic flowers that has popped up behind me*

Lucas: wtf?

Lucas: you grow meth?

Makenna: no

Lucas: damn. i was going to tell you to hook me up

My friends!! *hugs them*

So I have some really close friends on blog spot. (okay, only two...), and if you want to read their blogs, here are the links:

My boyfriend, Cody, A.K.A. Tank: www.codychael.blogspot.com >>>>

My best friend, Gage: http://hotslaughter.blogspot.com/

>>>>

Gage is the one standing at the left in the bluish-gray

with the guitar.

And here's the icon for today>>>

Boredom is Boring.

Happy Birthday, Rylea! Woohoo! The big 1-4!

I got soo bored last night. I was just looking thru the Photobucket, and I found this >>. Listen to it. I want comments.

I also want attention. I feel like my boyfriend is avoiding me, and isn't spending enough time with me. Like, he leaves me alone during lunch, and just... I feel so alone. And sometimes, I feel like fighting and getting into trouble is more important to him than me. Or doing things his way, like biting me wrong, bragging to everyone that he can turn me on by doing this, and then shows them. I feel like a trophy girlfriend, and that he's showing me off.

I try to talk to him about it. But he won't listen to me. I'm so not listened to. Dammit, I want someone to PAY ATTENTION TO ME. But I'm invisible, I guess. See the picture? >>

I'm sorry for the pityparty. I just... I need to get this out of me.