Does God Exist? A Question in a Forum. My Answer.

This morning I logged into my Myyearbook account, and read the question someone put out there in the forums. The question was: "i just got back from girls camp and now i know god is real. and that thereis a heaven and a hell if you disagree why?? what do you think happensafter you die?"
After a couple of minutes, I couldn't pull myself away. I had to tell this girl why. I think I had to tell me why. And now I will tell you why.
Hey, I'm LDS, or at least I was raised as one. I went to camp and all that, wentto church every Sunday, went to activities, (never went to Seminary, tho...) andall that jazz. I even gave one of the best talks that a youth in my ward hasgiven. But recently, I've opened my eyes to the world around me.
I hate the whole "gay marriage" argument. Love is love, and all love should behonored. If anyone wants to get married, it's thier right. If God doesn't likeit, then he can deal with it when they die.
My little sister is the epitome of Mormons. She is the EXTREME Molly Mormon. But I never was. I don't think I ever truly believed in it. And because I wasn't as perfect as her, not as happy, or didn't wear bright colors, and everything, Iwas judged. I'm upset that the Ward my family is in now is so cruel, as they do it to my little brother.
My sister was needed for babysitting by two families at the same time. When they were asked if I could do it for her, both adamantly said no, they just won't go out.
I have never had an amazing experience to tell me God is real. Even my baptism didn't reveal anything special, no peace of mind, no "holy ghost", or anything.Those few times I have believed, I have never felt so very alone.
That is why I don't believe in God.
I don't know what happens after death. Because I truly don't believe in God, I never could kill myself when I attempted to. I was afraid that there would be nothing, no life after death, no new experiences, that it all ends. I was afraid I was wrong and there would be something, and that I would suffer for my choices.
Religion has always been a struggle for me. I have a hard time not knowing if there is a higher being, also known as faith. I hope that all explains what you were asking. [end quote]
Does that make sense at all to you? Or am I just crazy?