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So I've been waking up lately feeling pretty crappy. So has everyone else in my family. I'm sick, tired, and I hurt. Headache, mood issues, muscle cramps, ect. And NO, for your info, I am NOT on my period, thank you. But I don't know what's wrong. My symptoms are different than that of the rest of my family's. Don't ask me why.

We're having issues with the money right now. And every time the $$ issue comes up, I feel all guilty, because I had to go to that academy. And it didn't really do much, besides scare the shit out of me. I have nightmares of that place. I don't think I'll ever be able to go to Zion without freaking out. It's not like they were hitting me or being physical, but it was emotionally scary.
I have nightmares of my counsilor, the Seminars, some of the girls. I'm terrified to go back. Garth (the counsilor) is soo condescending, and it felt like he LOATHED me. I try to email him, and he ignores me.

Right now, I'm just kind of in an apprehensive mood. Something's creeping me out. It may have been the intruder mom thought was outside last night. I'm just high-strung, I guess. I feel like a violin who's E-string is about to pop. I'm just really tense. I need a massage.